Sometimes I end up feeling bad about things I shouldn't and often find myself apologizing for them. To be honest it is probably my biggest weakness, because it often leads me into situations where I get walked all over or am just mistreated, and I just end up feeling miserable for a long time. I find myself becoming devastated over some mean or inconsiderate thing a person says to me which is completely not true, and then fine myself apologizing for it.
I feel like I have started getting better about it, and that it doesn't hurt me for as long, the problem is it still hurts me. Things that were said years ago still pop up every now and then to haunt me. And I just start to agonize over all the details again, to see what I could have done differently. But I am starting to come to the realizations that there is only so much blame I can take, and only so much I can do to mend things. If other people aren't willing to meet you half way there's not much you can do right? It still hurts though.
Oh Phoenix I wish I could just visit you without it hashing up old wounds.
Little Thoughts is a once in awhile free writing I do about things that bug me or just give me the blues.